Who Am I

I can honestly say I’m a unique individual, and I’m really proud of that. I was born into a family that had already “lived”, if you will. My parents had my brothers and sister much younger, and then I came around later in their lives. Some people ask me if it’s weird that I have siblings that could be my parents, and it really isn’t. I wouldn’t change my life for anything. Ofcourse, there are things I wish I could redo, but that’s life. Everything happens, in my opinion, for a reason. It’s all experiences. No one has “the perfect life”, there will always be shortfalls, but it’s what you make of it that truly defines your life. If you can just learn over time to accept bad things happen and that you learned from it, then you’re doing it right. I have had plenty of bad but I’ve also had so much good.

Recently I’ve been going through another bought of life that has been subpar, balanced between bad and good. I am so lucky that I have found and married the love of my life. Since marriage, it’s been a wonderful six months of bliss. We have grown from two people in a loving committed relationship to starting our lives as one. We’ve had some up’s and down’s but nothing is disrupting the fact that we love one another deeply and will do whatever we can for one another. I could not be more thankful to have found him.

I am not the best person when it comes to personal financing. I’ve always just kinda lived without a financial goal in mind, paying for what I need to, buying what I want and thinking there is no limit. Let me tell you, there is a limit, and I found it. I’ve started truly budgeting myself and working to get myself back on my feet. Through the last couple months though, of feeling at rock bottom and thinking there is no way out, I’ve lost a dear friend. I learned at her memorial service that she did so much for others. She was a party planner, not professionally, though maybe she should have, and would host these wonderful times for her friends and loved ones just because. She gave back to those less fortunate. She was the epitome of pay it forward. Since she’s been gone, I’ve found the inspiration to give my skills back to the world. I have so many plans on what I want to do, though finding my own funds to make it happen has been a bit of step back. I’m finding the motivation to hone in on my artistic skills to learn web design on my own so that maybe I can be an expert and freelance. Also, I want to start a side stationery business and bring my love of my cats to others through cute greeting cards and maybe once some funds come in, I can do more professional work. I loved creating the invitations for my wedding and want to give back to others. My sister and I loved planning the creative pieces of my shower and wedding as well, and we want to start a side business bringing our love of working together, and creating fun pieces to parties for friends and hopefully we can reach more prospective clients. I also want to start making in memory bracelets for those we’ve lost to the battle of cancer and give some of the proceeds to a cancer research foundation.

I know these are all really big dreams and maybe out of scope, but I honestly haven’t believed in something more. I feel that I can make this all happen. I just want to give back to the world a little bit of myself. It’s always been a dream.

As for other things, I have plans to recover from a herniated disc injury from two years ago. I didn’t get surgery, and plan to avoid it at all costs, unless there is no other option. I am a runner and not being able to just get out and run is killing me. My husband takes part in Spartan Races, and one day I want to complete one, but I need to get myself back. I want to run another marathon, and even complete the Goofy Challenge – half marathon one day, and full marathon the next. I want to compete in a triathlon and one day complete my goal of the Iron Man. I am trying my hardest to be careful but it has been so hard. I am starting a new physical therapy routine that I’m sort of creating on my own, taking the exercises given to me during physical therapy when my disc herniated, doing yoga and low impact cardio and running when I can.

I’m giving up other things that have been crutches to me when I’m down – nicotine and alcohol. Not that I am a alcoholic in any means, but coming home and having a couple beers or glasses of wine and not doing something more productive, is a waste, and I always feel bad about myself the next morning.

I have so many plans for my life ahead. Starting new things, and leaving others behind. Living a positive fulfilling life. Enjoying time with family and friends. Showering my cats with affection and understanding their needs. Helping others. Being an explorer of the world.

I am a student of life.

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