I’ve decided recently to start living a day by day type of lifestyle. Day by day meaning living in the present day. You never know what tomorrow is going to bring but you sure as hell can’t change what happened yesterday. So why do we keep trying to retrace our steps and fix all of those regrets? Well we’re human. It’s our nature.
All I’ve done for years is wonder why but not in the true sense that I should be. It’s all what if’s, and shouldves, and couldves, and wouldves. It just shouldn’t work that way because there is no changing what has happened. All you SHOULD do is move forward. Take what happened with a grain of salt and realize you are where you are for a reason. It’s all part of life’s journey.
I mean, there is plenty that I wish I could take back, but where would I be now if none of those things happened? I may not be getting married to the love of my life, I may not be the strongest person I have ever been, I may not have learned the things I have. The true lessons in my life that have gotten me to where I am at the young age of 25 years and 360 days. I could be doing very well, but I sure wouldn’t know the things I know. The ugliest pieces of life that many won’t see for another 30 years or even ever. Do I let it define me, do I wear it on my sleeve? To a point, but not where I let those pieces of me show through. The make me up, they are hidden deep within my soul. If when I faced these moments and took the other turn in the fork in the road, I would be a different person. I would probably be more naive and still think that everything in this world is beautiful and perfect and not realize that there are cold, sad, angry parts of this life. Being there has made me who I am.
I still believe even with all my heartache that life is beautiful. That it is perfect. It is! You just have to open your eyes and realize that those most prized pieces of your soul are right here. Right now. Those friends and family that are still standing next to you saying, wow you’ve made it a long ways. The people who are like wow I saw you 5 years ago and frankly I didn’t think you could get here and be this happy. The people who just cheer you on everyday. The people who say I’m happy waking up next to you everyday and always. This is life.
The bad will come, inevitably, but how you deal with it, defines who you are. Ofcourse you will make bad decisions and ones you will smack your forehead and go umm wtf did you do?! But don’t let those moments get you down. The next steps you take are most precious because they will mark the future. If it’s a wrong one, well you’ve learned a lesson. If it’s the right one, you can just get down and thank God (or whatever you believe in) that you made it. Life is a journey. It is not meant to be easy. It is meant to be tough, draining, but rewarding when you make it to your last days and you can say, man, I lived an awesome life, cause it’s gonna be.